Day 4, 10:54am

Welp, I'm still sick. My body aches, just as it did when I had the flu a couple of months ago, I'm incessantly coughing, my head is spinning, and I was just dripping sweat, and now I can't stop shivering--I just want to sleep, but I'm really not tired enough to do so.  I should stop. I feel like I should stop, but I just did some research and this is normal.

Normal.

I don't think I can handle it. I no longer want to do this. The crazy thing is, I've stopped having any urges of hunger. I'm to the point, were I'm so used to this feeling, that I forget to make myself the lemonades. Plus, they're getting grosser and grosser the more I drink. I'm repulsed by even the thought. I'm making a schedule, so I don't forget. Your brain needs a certain amount of calories per day--I need to force myself to allow my taste buds entertain that thought, because they're sick of this lemon, maple syrup, and cayenne pepper stuff.

I find that the best feeling in the world, is waking up on a saturday or sunday morning, knowing you have zero chance of waking up with a hangover, yet, today is not the case. I feel like I finished an entire bottle of vodka to myself, and as if I slipped and fell a million times last night. My muscles even hurt to the touch. Nonetheless, I still woke up this morning, and turned on Netflix to watch some Saturday Morning Cartoons--DID YOU KNOW THEY NOW HAVE ALL THE 1990s CARTOONS?! I was entertained by Rugrats, and old episodes of Spongebob.  My idea of perfection.

I, also, was happy to learn that day four is "Hump Day." Three and Four are supposed to, by far, be the worst days, and let me tell you, I can attest to that. After you make it over the hump, a euphoria is supposed to kick in. I'm waiting. I am waiting. I don't think I can last with self-imposed flu-like symptoms for the next six days, but I can try to handle one or two. I'm trying my best to stay strong. That's all that matters.

On a positive note, Nicole, my best friend, feels great! She has no headaches, she's not hungry, nothing negative. I'm happy to know she's not suffering like I am. If you're reading this for insight as to how you will feel, I'm finding more and more that every person suffers different side affects. So you just gotta try it out for yourself!